Goodbyes are the most difficult

Virtual Namaste Guys. Hope all is well. Its been long since I have written something (rough patch of life). But I am back now. Hopefully, we will be seeing more of each other now (sadly only virtually). All this time, I have been thinking about something to write about; have started writing but never completed them. But today something happened with me which I just felt like writing about. Hopefully, you guys can relate to what I am saying.

So today, something that I was fearing since the last 3 weeks happened. Had to bid goodbye to my closest buddy at work. Gosh that was super difficult. Planned for weeks what to do, but what happened eventually was completely different and it was beautiful. You guys must be thinking that what is Azim saying; the person is not dying but has just left the organization. I agree and that was exactly what I was told by my buddy. But the fact is you get too attached and habituated to that one person being around every time, whether it for a cup of coffee or to bitch about some colleague or rant about the work, you just have to look up from your desk and there is your buddy.

Today made me realize how difficult goodbyes can truly be. When my buddy came to my desk today all packed up, the only thing I could say was don’t go. After my buddy left, I sat there just remembering the awesome times we spent together, read the goodbye e-mail like 10 times over. It just felt empty sitting there. Felt like I lost a part of myself today. To be very honest I was scared that someone else will replace me. We all have got that feeling right.  

So why are goodbyes always so difficult. Why can’t they just be as easy as that time when you said Hello. Why do we sometimes mark a goodbye as an end of a relationship. Why do goodbyes bring distance between people? It’s just crazy right what a simple 7 letter word can do. The worst part is that goodbyes seem to get more difficult than the previous one. Overwhelming right.

As I walked out of my office today alone, I realized that the goodbye I told my buddy today was only the start of a new relationship; a stronger relationship. Maybe we will not be in touch every day; maybe we will not speak to each other for days together, but the moment we will be together it will be like we were always together. Today made me realize that goodbyes are never an end; it’s only the beginning of a new chapter.

It’s sad that we always associate goodbyes with grief; we barely consider the possibility that it gives us a reason to cherish the amazing memories created; memories which last a lifetime. We sometimes forget that while parting ways Goodbye is the last thing we say; why can’t it be something better, something beautiful (I am sure that’s not the last thing we want to say to the people we deeply love right) but we involuntary say it. Amazing right.

I must have said goodbye like 10 times to this person today without any intention of letting go, but eventually that person had to go and I realized that I wasted the time we had in saying goodbye 10 times, instead of make even more memories, could have clicked some pictures, could have had couple of more hugs maybe or what not instead of the just saying GOODBYE. Wish I could turn the clock a few hours back and change, but its over now.

Let the goodbyes not make us feel that we are leaving behind something; let it be a way to accumulate all the memories and carry it along while making new ones. A goodbye can be beautiful too, its only a matter to change the way we understand goodbyes. Today in the digital space we are never truly away from anyone that we need to say goodbye; just a ping away right.

We all must have had our share of goodbyes right, and I hope that everyone reading this will remember that one person who was so dear to them. So, let’s pick up our phones and drop in a message to that person and make some beautiful memories. Leaving you with this thought and obviously its not a goodbye from me today. Take care guys.

Cheers,

Azim.